re·solve (r-zlv)
v. re·solved, re·solv·ing, re·solves
With 2013 just a few hours away, rest assured I will be joining the ranks of the many people making New Years resolutions. This yearly tradition will not see my committing to a new gym membership to “tame the bulge” because – happily – I am not overweight. However, it will see a renewed committment to friends, family + self. And maybe self might make up most of my resolution, but when Tammi’s happy everything else in her peripheral is happy too. Or at least that’s what I will keep telling myself…
1. To change or convert
My affinity for the f-word, even if it’s around my closest friends, is not cool. This love for this particular word and others with similar flare may add color to my storytelling, but it doesn’t add flavor. I’m trading color for flavor this year. We will see how that goes!
2. To remove or dispel
My 30s have seen some weeding of my metaphorical garden. Acquaintances in my life are many. True friends are few. Friendship, like family, is a give-and-take relationship. I will no longer serve as an enabler of addiction to negativity. When people come into your life and all they do is take and harm, one must reassess. I’ve used the last few months to do just that.
I am going into this New Year surrounded by wonderful and quirky friends who continually bless me with their patience, love, friendship and,often much-needed, brutal and transparent honesty. I resolve to the knowledge that sometimes I may be a weak friend. I resolve in knowing that sometimes my friends will be weak. I resolve to reflect on and improve my shortcomings, mourn our losses and celebrate our victories together. My friends are my family that I chose. Thank you for choosing to join me on this ride. I will do my damndest to not disappoint. (DAGGER – I used a colorful word again!)
3. To find a solution to; solve.
My children are growing into a young man and young woman. UGH, I typed it which makes it even more true. Though I can’t “solve” this biological phenomena, I can jump on this wild roller coaster of the teen years, ride it, find the moments of beauty and grow from the experience.
I resolve to breathe and reflect on what they are feeling before I respond to a door being slammed out of teenage angst. I resolve to stop and listen to their woes, even if I don’t have the “time.” I resolve to hugging them more, despite their thinking they don’t want or need it.
My unconditional love for them is resolute, even if they think at that very moment they don’t like me.
4. To make a firm decision about.
Baltimore Marathon – here I come baby! My 2012 running year was an awesome one. My goals included: running an entire year injury-free and breaking my personal record/best in a 5k and the 1/2 marathon. Check, check and check. My ahhhhhh-mazing running buddy and great friend, Lila, and I have committed to doing our very 1st marathon together next fall. I can’t think of anyone else I’d rather take this journey with other than her.
2013
It’s going to be fun.
It’s going to be hard.
It’s going to be monumental.
Failing At Frugal 